Routines

It's coming up on two months since we lost Dolce.  I can't believe how fast time has gone by.  Isn't it strange how time just moves on even though you're grieving?  The Fall term began, I made it through all 10 seasons of Friends, and now I'm nearing the end of all 7 seasons of Gilmore Girls, times does not stop.  Once Gilmore Girls is over I'm not sure what I will do next.  Since Dolce passed away I've struggled with resuming my old routines.  I've been told that in times of grief we try to find control in any way possible.  I think this may be true.  I've refused to watch television unless it is Friends or Gilmore Girls on DVD.  I stopped blow-drying my hair.  This probably seems silly to most, but my hair takes a long time to dry naturally and looks terribly undone and frizzy.  My point is that I refuse to blow-dry my hair.  I suppose in some way I want to look less put together than I was before I lost Dolce.  It is a way to show that I'm not done grieving and I am still hurting.

Have any of you experienced this need to end routines after losing someone you love?  Care to share them with me?